last nite in SF

tonite's my last nite in San Fran... having mixed feelings abt going back home.
ya sure i miss my bed and the comforts of ur "own home"
but i noe i'll miss my aunt n her poochy...
(she has a damnnn cute dog!!!!)

yup so i jus came back hm frm dnr.. now jus detailing myself on dis blog..
i miss all my lovely pple back in spore..
but i'll miss life here too..

wonder hw i'll adapt to weather changes and slp patterns man... jus hope it'll all work out jus fine for me. keeping a positive outlook. haa.

also, 6dec is THE day. jus hope my results will be fine.
jus hope to clear all my mods. really hope so.
everyone, pls pray for me k?

well.. hope everyone had a gd 3weeks break frm me! haha.
take care and c ya'll whn i c u..

tmr is judgement day

PM tmr.
i'm so ill-prepared. i know it.
i'm so afraid i'll blank out in front of the paper.
graphs. terms. definitions. concepts.
i jus cant stand the graph part!
i mean if it was jus calculations it still wudnt b half as tough (i think) cos all u hv to do is apply it to formulas.
sigh. oh well. lets jus get it done.

cuzy, good luck for tmr's financial mgmt! we're gonna do this alrite. face our fears once n for all. get it over and done with.
before we know it, it'll all be over. *huggies cuz*

excited~!

it's the end of the year already!
this means that Christmas and New Year is coming!
i'm so excited about Christmas!
its my favourite time of the year! :)
the mere thought abt all the celebrations, mass, hymns, choirs, carols just make me smile.
all the decorations down orchard road, having grace back, listening to carols all day n night long, cool weather with sudden bouts of rain.. these are all part of the package for welcoming the end of the year. haha.
well, i certainly look forward to all that. upon my return from my US trip, it wont be long till grace's return as well. so looking forward to that.
i hope 2006 end of the year will be a good and happy one for me. the past few have been quite dreary. but oh well. one shall only look forward and try my best to tink postitively huh.
i'm sure this year will be a blast with all my loved ones and friends! :)

for now, good luck to those having exams.. i know there's alot of us who are in the midst of it.
i've got 2 down, 2 more to go. by fri, all my nite mare is over for this sem. the nxt nite mare, my results. god bless me on tt.
all the best and all the way!
we're all in this together.
no matter how difficult the studying/uni road ahead is, solder on k. we can do it as long as we believe in ourselves. dun gif up on urself cos no one has given up on u.
when u feel vexed and tired, tell urself, soon enough, all this will be worth while. tink abt the sense of accomplishment after it all.
stress is all jus in the mind. remember that. nvr let it get the better of u.
peace be with each and everyone of u.
God bless.

my bday gathering on 01nov

special thanks to all my loveliest friends!
u guys know who u all r.. ;)
thank you so much for that wonderful day.
it is an awesome memory.
really appreciate wad each and everyone of u have done.
to those who cudnt make it for 1 reason or another (ahem! cuzy, beefy & mei) hee.
u guys r spared! altho mayb u can buy me lunch or coffee? ;)
hehe. jus kiddin.

cuzy dear.. thank u so much for the calls. it meant the world to me to hear frm u... 'ni zhi dao ni shi zui hao de!' =) mmmmuaaackss!

THANK YOU ALL SOOOOOOOO VERYYYY MUCH!
=)
all the coordinating and hard work PAID OFF guys!
danielle, u did an awesome job. thanks for all ur help and effort.
love u all so much!

anybody got pix frm that day pls let me noe on msn! or email me or smthg.. many thanks!

BB sucked.

sigh.. BB din go too well for me.
mind was all over the place during the paper.
and i left a question (definition) completely blank.
oh well grades are in the hands of God now.

2 down, 2 more to go.
10days to US. cant wait.

the amazing world of colorgenics

my complete personal profile

"You are the sort of person that needs a peaceful environment. You seek release from stress and freedom from conflicts and disagreements, of which you seem to have had more than your fair share. But you are taking pains to control the situation by proceeding cautiously and you are right in doing so as you are a very sensitive person.

Enough is enough. Nothing seems to be working out as you would like it to and it has got to the stage where you feel as if you can't be bothered anymore. The way you feel is that it would be great if you could be cut off from everything and take it easy - be it only for a short time.

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always 'right' - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others.

You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone."

people, when ure free, try this test from the link below.
the results are really quite fascinating!

http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/index.htm

which to believe?

u learn to live. or u live to learn.

u eat to live. or u live to eat.

how does one measure success? by achieving wad he/she wants as in "personal acheivement", which is subjective and varies between each different individual or do u jus choose to go with the crowd?

how responsive are u to wad goes on ard u?
being too materialistic is no good definately.
but wad's impt anymore?
do u jus live in ur own world and do things the way u want them to be done or does one jus not bother?

its impt to have dreams and goals. i'm glad i have mine and i will work towards it.
being cash rich sure isnt everything. but it sure is impt.
being financially independent. dat is smthg i am looking forward to become.
but bearing in mind to 'keep it real' is very impt.
nvr let success and money get to ur head. bcos whn it does, u will nt b able to recognise urself or know who u r anymore.
n dats scary. the mere thot of it freaks me out. yup.
internal conflicts occur in my everyday life. but nw its better nt to tink abt dem.
i'll sort dem out sooner or ltr.

thanks to all my frens who stick by me throughout my difficult times.
i noe i can b quite a tough nut to crack.
some may nt fully understand me as a person as well.
i dun blame u cos
hw can i expect someone else to understand me whn i myself dun understand myself.
this way, i tink i probably cant communicate very effectively as well.
gee.

oh well. buyer behaviour tmr.
wish me luck.
soon 2 papers down and 2 more to go.
PM is worrying me.
but i suddenly feel the lack of drive.

beginning of exams

one paper down!
3 more to go!
woohooo!
lets thrash their ass man!

EG yesterday went fine.
wrote a hell lot. wadever that applies to the question as much as i can remember.
200-300 words or abt 3/4 page for short answer question...
BULLSHIT!
each answer took an average of 2 pages la! crappoos.. -____-

anyhow.. BB's nxt on tues.
hmmm lots of memory power needed for this one too.
but after all its a mktg subject... most imptly, remember key terms n definations which is a damn lot den the rest jus "bullshit" ur way thru.

the only thing i'm super duper worried abt is PM..
econs. sucks.
i duno man. jus hope to pass this one. really. math, science, econs, acctg, finance, not my forte man. so yup. jus keep it at distance wud b gd.
one must be realistic and be able to recognise ur strength and weaknesses rite.
yup so i noe mine when it comes to theory man.

good afternoon all.
have a good day.
back to my hot date with BB notes and text.

taking too long

this is taking longer than expected.
i think i'm studying waaaayyyy toooooooooo SLOW!
dis is pissing me off.
i cant seem to focus and concentrate. damn it.
3days to my first paper.
someone kill me pls.

finally confirmed!

phewwwwww~~~~~~~

finally i say!
after such a big hiccup, my return flight to San Fran is FINALLY confirmed!
past few days have been crappy la.
everyone was so jittery abt the whole mishap in booking but now it is all clear and gd to go!
splendid i say!

clothes wise, still not that prepared. need to search for trench coat and boats very urgently. so if anyone happen to come across, pls let me noe! ;)

yup so hyped up for the trip alr dat i got hardly any mood left for studying (which isnt such a gd thing afterall) =X
5days to my first paper and 22 days to my departure! woohoo.
cant wait for exams to be over!

gdnite all.

all things bad

there's smthg annoyingly wrong with my tag board! did anyone notice? it's been like that for several days. so pls dun tag me. i cant be bothered abt it for nw.

exams begin in 7 days.

i flunked my prices and markets test 2. great news huh. esp whn exams r gonna be even tougher. bloody shit.

24 more days and i'll be out of town! this is certainly smthg that puts a smile on my face.

i feel so out of sorts now. fighting an inner battle takes up alot of unnecessary energy. knowing i need to working harder and knowing i've got so little time, body's feeling so weak.
the soul is willing but the flesh is weak. how true.

now all i pray is for myself to pull thru the remaining 23 days till my last paper. i pray for God's wisdom and strength on all of us studying/schooling alike. stay strong and be a fighter. we're all in this together!

cuzy, we can do it ya! it's alr ur last sem. hang in there! i noe u'll do great, u always do.
i'm so proud of u.
love u n missing u as always...

my new companion

late nights and with little sleep, i have found a new companion
who sits and accompany me all through the dark and dreary lonely nite,
he is none other than.....

H-Two-O Original (Yeo's Isotonic Drink)

3 weeks

oh gosh. i jus realised it's exactly 2 weeks to my 1st paper (25oct) and 3 weeks to 01Nov!
eeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkssssssssssssssssss....!!!!!!!!!!!
i need to study so badly i swear. but my EG rpt is killing my brain cells. drying my brain juices up.
Dear God pls keep me sane & well. dats very impt.
to tink i'm actually looking forward to night class tmr.
i tink i may be going out of my mind.
i'm craving for strawberry ciggies!!! *ahem

if only i could turn back time, turn it back to the time when Lydia was sweet 16!

that wud be Ppppppuuurrrrrrfffeeccccccctttttt! ;)

perhaps this holidays will be a timely self-reflection. cud use this time not jus on shopping but also on spiritual growth. perhaps i mite come back wif a glow! hee.

i jus look forward to celebrating the day with God, my loved ones and frens! yup, i need to go to church on 01nov.
calling all catholics!!! hear ye hear ye! 01nov is day of obligation! = must go for mass. All Saints Day alrite!

yup so lets hope the 1st 2 papers before 01nov will still ensure my survival. haha.
take care all and be well.

older generations...

age with grace.
i think that's the best method of aging.
but why do some people prefer to be so difficult?
question is why make urself miserable when u can live in peace and harmony with those ard you?
sigh. some pple r jus so difficult to understand...
i jus noe i'll never be like them.

complex

current mood: crappy.

pple say women are complex creatures.
do you think so?

sometimes i dun tink she knows herself very well.
thots, feelings.
or is it fear that she face?
fear of owning up to how she really feels.

do pple try to be someone they are not?
wad wud u do if pple think so highly of u, like as if u cant falter, u can do no wrong.
some pple tink they noe u very well, but do they really?

never assume bcos u'll make an ass of u & me.
funny but true.
things arent always the way it seems.

mayb she jus dun want to own up to the truth, mayb she's jus running away from things that r going thru in her life.
but can u blame her?
wad if she is jus made that way?
wad if that's the only way she knows how to express herself?
shud she be condemned?

or mayb she jus wants to be this way.
why cant pple jus love or accept her for the way she really is?
why must she be told how she should feel or wad she should do?
is her whole life made up by mere rules & regulations?
wad meaning is there den?

she doesnt like to be questioned. and she doesnt like to be told wad to do. it's jus not meant to be like dat.
bcos if that were the case, she'd be better off as being a toy - a barbie doll that pple play ard with and do all the talking for it.

jus go with the flow.
it's all abt choices.
it's gd to have alone time.
there are more impt things rite now.

leadership effectiveness

high structure, coupled with low consideration leads to high grievances and turnover.
in other words, it is the recipe for disaster in an org.

consideration is the dominant factor in determining leadership effectiveness.

LM Chap 6 quote

"Power is the ability to exercise influence, and influence is the ability to bring about change."



sooooo... how influential are you?

week ahead

mon - Leadership & Mgmt test
fri - Ethics & Governance essay submission
*faints*

time to get my act together!
i got to work harder man.
19days to my 1st paper & i hvnt started revision/studying. not even once.

PM test 2

yesterday's prices and mkts test 2 SUCKED.

a quote frm somewhere

i read a print-out my dad passed me which read smthg like:

"Love your job, but never fall in love with your company because you never know when the company stops loving you" - - Narayana Murthy

how true i find it...